Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Sweet & Steamy Giveaway ~ Hosted by Sunrise Author Services


Welcome to the Sweet & Steamy Giveaway,
hosted by Sunrise Author Services!

Hello! I'm pleased to be part of this amazing giveaway hosted by Sunrise Author Services. The grand prize for the giveaway is a $100 Gift Card to Amazon or B&N (winner's choice) AND a bunch of e-copies of books written by the authors in the giveaway!


Here are all the amazing authors participating in this giveaway:

| Alexa Padgett | Alicia Kobishop | Brenda St John Brown |
| Charlize Starr | Cheryl Phipps | Chiquita Dennie |
| J. Saman | J.J. Bella | Jessica Sankiewicz | Julia Imari |
| Juno Chase | Kinsey Corwin | Lilly Avalon |
| Marie Landry | Mercedes Siler | PJ Fiala | R.M. Gauthier |
| Robin Laine | Sherri Hayes | Simone Leigh |
| Suzanne Jenkins | Tamara Ferguson | Taylor Marsh |


Be sure to follow us on our social media pages:

Alexa Padgett ~ Twitter | Facebook
Alicia Kobishop ~ Twitter | Facebook
Brenda St John Brown ~ Twitter | Facebook
Charlize Starr ~ Twitter | Facebook
Cheryl Phipps ~ Twitter | Facebook
Chiquita Dennie ~ Twitter | Facebook
J. Saman ~ Twitter | Facebook
J.J. Bella ~ Twitter | Facebook
Jessica Sankiewicz ~ Twitter | Facebook
Julia Imari ~ Twitter | Facebook
Juno Chase ~ Twitter | Facebook
Kinsey Corwin ~ Twitter | Facebook
Lilly Avalon ~ Twitter | Facebook
Marie Landry ~ Twitter | Facebook
PJ Fiala ~ Twitter | Facebook
Mercedes Siler ~ Twitter | Facebook
R.M. Gauthier ~ Twitter | Facebook
Robin Laine ~ Twitter | Facebook
Sherri Hayes ~ Twitter | Facebook
Simone Leigh ~ Twitter | Facebook
Suzanne Jenkins ~ Twitter | Facebook
Tamara Ferguson ~ Twitter | Facebook
Taylor Marsh ~ Twitter | Facebook

What books could you possibly win?

  1. A Brit on the Side by Brenda St. John Brown
  2. Antonio and Sabrina Struck In Love by Chiquita Dennie
  3. Behind Closed Doors by Sherri Hayes
  4. Below the Beltway by Taylor Marsh
  5. Beltway Betrayers by Taylor Marsh
  6. Between Breaths by Alexa Padgett
  7. Bittersweets Brenda and Larry by Suzanne Jenkins
  8. Bittersweets Terry and Alex by Suzanne Jenkins
  9. Christmas Miracle in July by R.M.Gauthier
  10. Christmas Miracle on Valentine's Day by R.M.Gauthier
  11. Christmas Miracle on Easter by R.M.Gauthier
  12. Daddy's Bossy Friend by Charlize Starr
  13. Mastering the Virgin: Friends (Book One) by Simone Leigh
  14. Mastering the Virgin: Partners (Book Two) by Simone Leigh
  15. New to the Game (D.C. Knights Book 1) by Juno Chase
  16. Not Until Tonight by Jessica Sankiewicz
  17. Reluctant Billionaire by Cheryl Phipps
  18. Resist by Lilly Avalon
  19. RUSE: A Billionaire Single Dad Romance by J.J. Bella
  20. Securing Kiera's Love by PJ Fiala
  21. Something in the Air by Marie Landry
  22. Start Again by J. Saman
  23. The Fine Line by Alicia Kobishop
  24. The Girl in the Front of The Room by Mercedes Siler 
  25. The Most Wonderful Time of the Year by Marie Landry
  26. Their Secret Desire by Julia Imari
  27. Two Hearts' Christmas Wish by Tamara Ferguson
  28. Unexpected by Lilly Avalon
  29. Unwell by Robin Laine
  30. What if We Break by Kinsey Corwin

$100 ~AND~ ALL THOSE BOOKS???
WHAT A GIVEAWAY!

How can you win? It's easy! Enter your email into the first Rafflecopter entry to subscribe to all the author newsletters. After that, you can gain MORE entries by following the authors on Twitter and visiting their fan pages on Facebook. Super easy, right??

Terms and Conditions: Open internationally. Must be 16 years of age or older to enter.

Giveaway begins on November 28th, 2017 and ends at midnight EST on December 5th. Winner will be selected within a few days after the giveaway ends and notified via email.

This giveaway is sponsored by 22 authors and hosted by Sunrise Author Services. All entrants will be added to all 22 author's newsletters as per the agreement with your mandatory entry. The gift card will be provided by SAS and the ebooks will be provided by each author once the winner is selected.

Thank you.



a Rafflecopter giveaway


Good luck everyone!


Monday, September 25, 2017

A Switch to Kindle Unlimited!


Hello!!


I've decided to place both Now You Can See and Not Until Tonight on Kindle Unlimited for the first time. It isn't the first time I've used KU (I put all my Lilly Avalon books on KU a few times), but I've never done it under Jessica Sankiewicz/Jessica L. Tate.

So if you haven't had the chance to read either and you have KU, now's your chance to check them out for free! If you don't have KU, you can still get Not Until Tonight for only 99 cents and Now You Can See for only $1.99.



If Only We is still available on all platforms, but I am planning on switching it to KU at some point in the near future (possibly by the end of the year). I'm in the process of a few light edits to fix some errors I've discovered since publishing. Hopefully I'll be able to get to these soon and get the book reformatted, which I'm going to attempt to do myself, so wish me luck there!


Happy reading!


Tuesday, September 12, 2017

When Anxiety Takes Over and Becomes Something More


Let's start when my anxiety was first diagnosed. Initially it was a relief: I finally had a name for it. I began taking medication, which helped temper my anxious feelings and kept me from snapping at people as much. It didn't go away, and I knew it wouldn't, but I was feeling much better.

Fast forward to today.

It may not be as bad as it was prior to meds, but the ugliness of anxiety stares at my face with such disdain daily. It used to just throw me off, make me overly nervous and occasionally panic without warning.

But now? Now it drags me down into a despair I haven't seen since I was a hormonal adolescent. I struggled a bit with depression off and on in my teenage years. I may not have been officially diagnosed, but the symptoms showed up often. I managed to push through it, mostly due to the balancing of hormones once I reached adulthood and my own resolve to break out of my shell.

I'm not fully depressed to a point of no return, but it's there, hanging over me like a cloud. My motivation to do certain things has slowed down. I'll still get things done, there are just certain things I'll push back or ignore or forget to do because my mind is elsewhere. I seem to continually prefer the idea of a nap over cleaning the apartment or I'll binge watch Netflix instead of doing the dishes. Sometimes my desire to do something I love wanes and I don't find as much pleasure or joy in it. One of the worst things is I'll occasionally skip showering because I lack the energy to do it.

Another thing is that financial troubles weigh me down. I've been working a part-time slightly above minimum wage job for the last two and a half years. I switched to it because working in pharmacy was causing too much stress, plus I was being overworked and underpaid for the job duties I had. So I picked my current job because I needed one and I had to be somewhere with far less stress, even if the pay and hours were less. Unfortunately, it hasn't covered the bills as well as I needed them to and I'm now struggling to stay afloat.

Also, my creativity isn't what it used to be. Other than publishing my poetry compilation, my last published fiction book was in February of last year. That's a year and a half ago. Given the fact that I used to be able to publish one book after another (max of about six months in between), it's not normal. Once I wrote one, I was at least dabbling in the next one after it releases. While I have been writing when I'm inspired, it isn't remotely close to what it was doing before. And it's not just my writing--it's also almost any other creative outlet I once had. I put my bottle cap charm sales on hiatus on Etsy; I haven't used my adult coloring books in months; and I can't remember the last time I really danced. Plus, I stopped learning German every day and haven't gotten back to it for the last four months.

But...

I'm still happy. I still laugh. I still go to work on time. I'm not sad. I'm not wishing I was dead. I pay my bills on time. I don't gorge on junk food or starve myself. I don't sleep all the time.

However...

I know it's depression. It may not manifest in the most perfect way to indicate I must have it, but everything negative I've been feeling and dealing with point to it. Bold face. Underline. Highlighted.

I have anxiety and depression.

I never wanted to admit to either, and the only reason I admitted to the former is because it had started to affect my friendships and family. I didn't want the anxiety to take over and cause more problems than it already had. But depression? Really? A doctor once tried to diagnose me with it, but I knew I didn't have it.

At least, I thought I didn't have it. Looking back, I can see that I was a bit in denial, not to mention a bit afraid of the stigma. It's hard to avoid the stigma, even if you know in your heart of hearts that mental illness is real. It's when other people who don't get it are present that you fear the stigma.

I feared it back then, not only because I was afraid of what people would think, but also due to the fact that someone close to me didn't trust psychology. They were worried any therapist I would potentially talk to would manipulate me, make me believe things I shouldn't. Like, for example, place blame on my religion or convince me my troubles stem from how I was being raised.

Looking back I can see the folly in that. A good therapist won't tell you to leave your religion or place undue blame on someone or something without weighing all the facts. For teenage Jessica, though, she didn't trust therapy… but she did find psychology fascinating. Maybe because my subconscious was trying to get me to view it in an unbiased way and make me open enough to understand it and understand myself.

I wish I could've gotten help sooner, that I could've seen my mental illnesses for what they are and not be ashamed of them. Now here I am, coming to terms with my feelings and fighting battles that could've been prevented had I known better when I was younger. I should've trusted my instincts, realized the hurt and guilt I was pushing down was something I could face head on and move past.

But here's the thing: I can't beat myself up over the past. That's essentially making things worse. I have to forgive myself and forgive those who have hurt me, whether it was intentionally or unknowingly. It's all I can do. I can't go back and change anything, nor would I want to. Regardless of the pain I've experienced, I would not be me and I would not have the life I have now. Maybe some things could be better, but it would be at the expense of the beautiful life I'm living right this minute.

What it comes down to is reaching out for help and being brave enough to make the changes I need to improve myself. Some days I doubt my ability to do more, to get out of bed or off the couch, but I know I'm capable of so much more. I can't allow negativity to seep in and destroy my happiness or my dreams. And right now, anxiety and depression are tampering with my dreams, and I've been allowing it.

No more.

It's not going to be easy. It will be difficult, I will struggle. I may hit roadblocks and possibly crash... but I can't give up. I can't relinquish my control and let everything fall apart because it's hard. Life is hard. That's a given. We can't give up when life gets tough, we have to keep going, keep pressing forward.

I have so many dreams and future plans. Beautiful ones. I want to be ready for them. I want to accomplish them. I need to.

I'm writing this post because I can't keep running away from the facts. I need to face the anxiety, face the depression, and find my way again.



Thank you for reading and always know that I'm here to talk if you're struggling, too.